Months of therapy on my shoulders, elbow, back, and then I injure my knee? Come on, where is the justice! I woke up this morning at 4:15 AM and drove 45 minutes to my Brazilian Jiu Jitsu class. This alone should merit a badge of determination. After a great workout, I looked at the clock and saw that I had to leave. So, of course, I told the instructor, "just two minutes for a roll, I need to sweat." After being tapped out with a slick Kimura, I had to keep going. I got on top but he had me in half guard. I thought, "yes, I've been working on this in privates with my instructor for 3 weeks." As I moved my head across his body I went to raise my hips to do a knee pass and unfortunately I went one way and my knee went the other. This isn't the first time I've hurt my knee as I've torn my ACL and my MCL. Unfortunately, like every other injury, I didn't have surgery. The funny thing is that it's been so long that I don't even remember what knee! But I do remember the pain.
So now what? Well if I listened to my friends, co-workers, physicians, chiropractors, acupuncturists, massage therapists and most of all - family, then I should quit and quit now. However, if you ask any of my instructors they would say, "suck it up pussy!" That is mentality of a true martial artist. It is in our blood, our DNA, and taking it away from our life would take away our soul.
But we can't all go on forever. I remember watching Helio Gracie train in his 90's thinking to myself that he would never die. How could a man that is 90 years old who still does martial arts, stays in shape, and lives a completely healthy lifestyle, die? The answer is that we all get old, we all slow down, and we can't live forever. I watch some of these football players like Jerome Bettis who at 40 something can barely get out of bed. I'm not there, but I'm also not far away. I may be a pussy but I'm not an idiot.
I'm not going to give up, but I'm definitely going to slow down. It takes someone with a iron skillet to hit it over my head for me to realize I can't do something. Even when I realize it, I won't let someone else tell me that I can't. Today I'm telling myself it's time. Even with this new injury I'm not going to stop during UBBT. Even if I have another torn ligament, nothing is going to stop me from attaining my goal. But after the goal is met, a new journey begins in my quest to slow down training and to find a martial art that fits my current physical condition.
Doesn't Tae Chi have a harder style? Ok, maybe I won't change. Damnit.